Thursday, October 20, 2016

Four Years

My dearest Matthew,

Today marks four years of pure wedded bliss with you. This month marks 11 incredible years spent with you. It's so hard to put into words how much that means to me.

When I first met you, you were cute, you were shy, you were quiet. You were permitting and eager to please and I could tell you felt deeply for people. You were so young and I remember how sweet those little red cheeks were. We grew up a bit and at 14 years old, finally came together at the very best time. I could cry thinking about how sweet it all was in the beginning, how passionate we were, how nervous and confused I was, at how genuine and caring you were. I vividly remember when you first kissed me... the excitement I felt and the nervousness of your shaking hand as you held mine. If only I knew then all of the wonderful things we'd do together in life.

Do you remember the fall season in 2005? I know your memory is pretty horrible, but gosh, I hold the fondest memories of that time so deep in my heart. It was the very beginning of us. Remember getting to school SO early just to hang out together in mom's office? Man, I just wanted to LIVE at your house... to be with you as much as I could... immersing ourselves in passion and love. You saved me then from every awful, emotional, teenage drama I was in. You helped me realize my self-worth. You helped me see clearly. And you were so very patient about it.

Today, I want you to know how much you mean to me, how deeply embedded in my heart you are. I love you more and more every single day, even if it doesn't seem that way. You are selfless. You are hard-working. You are genuine. You are funny. You are lovable. You are kind. You are unfiltered. You are thoughtful. And you're still a bit shy and quiet, but never with me. You're more than I ever could have expected, and you're definitely more than I deserve.

Thank you for being all of these things and more. Thank you for giving me an incredibly happy life and the greatest gift I ever could have received... a family of my own. Jackson inherited all the best parts of you and more, and I can't wait to watch him and our future children grow (hopefully they aren't as sassy as you are). There's no one else in this world I'd rather have by my side, no one else I'd rather grow old with, no one else I'd rather care for and to have care for me. There's no one else I'd rather do life with than you.

Happy 4th Anniversary, baby. I love you, I love you, I love you.